I've actually wanted to write tonnes of things here but the bloody god damn rain has got to come. Now I can't see a damn thing through my window. Not a damn thing.

Elise suggested that I find a girl and moved to her house. I think thats a great idea. I mean whats better then slots and hugging your loved one? But I think its gonna last me two months before it ends. I have very little attention-lifespans. I cannot concentrate. Actually all of us cannot concentrate. Nevermind it.

Here's to a friend. Hope you learn something.

I used to feel what you feel right now. The sky darkens to a grey, the peace turns up to a deafening scream. Yes, I used to miss someone greatly and deeply. No one knows of the deafening silents I endured every day and night. Because I shared with no one. It was painful and yet I kept that feeling. Why? Because the very thought of forgetting that person makes my heart shivers. Maybe mine is worse then yours. The only one I've ever felt close with. The only one I open my heart to. And I did stupid things just to preserve that thought.
But as time went by, I grew. So does that thought. I no longer want her to return. Just knowing that she smiles and felt happy from day to day satisfied me. And as more time grew, that thought slowly vanishes. And I learned that I was just been selfish. Not knowing how and when to cherish what is most important to me and regretting at the loss of it. In the end I realised that whatever I do she's still besides me. Even though after the disappearances of that thought, I still miss her once in a while. But its the memories I truly missed. Even though we no longer feels the same as before and even though I still miss her sometimes, I know at least we used to share something similar.
Now my friend, isn't that enough?

After the rain, the temperature rises to a great heat. My spinning kicks no longer reach that height it used to soar. So does the turning kick and back kick.
Maybe I'm not young anymore for such stuff.
Maybe I need a new heart.
Maybe..
Somehow..
Well..
Perhaps..